Well...

Have you ever had those days where you just feel like an outcast no matter who you talk to? I'm not going to be "emo" but it's just one of those days. I feel like no matter who I talk to, I just don't belong there.. in that conversation. Is that weird? I don't know, but all I know is that is how I feel right now. Things are going to shit at school, for some reason, everyone has a problem with me, and this wasn't the case about a month ago. A month ago, I was popular-ish. I mean.. I had alot of friends that I hung out with. Butwhen one of the people who isn't talking to me.. called "Alesha" said that I were one of her best friends and the feeling was mutual. I thought she was one of MY best friends.. Now.. I'm not even invited to her birthday party. It all starts with this one girl.. I'll call her "Jenny", so Jenny and I were pretty good friends, we hung out quite a bit, went to a concert together, talked alot.. but then one day I came to school and she just started yelling at me. I was like "what the fuck?" and I walked away because I didn't want to start yelling and be a mean fat bitch like her... and I mean that in the most polite way. But seriously, who does that?! People with no life and absolutely no self-confidence, so they have to bad mouth other people. But she can go screw herself. I don't like getting mad, I'm usually a very mellow calm person, but for some reason these people make me act like someone I'm not. Another girl is ... "Amanda" and Amanda is really nice to me over MSN, and when this certain friend isn't around... and she will be called "Brenda". When Amanda is around Brenda, she acts completely different and is the meanest I've ever seen her. Beside these 4-5 people, everyone in my grade is just chill with eachother.. You would think that they would catch on and realize that gossip and rumors.. talking about someone behind their back.. is so lame and childish. Everyone doesnt really like these people, including me, so people just ignore them because they don't want to be involved with petty gossip. So to Alesha, Jenny, Amanda, and Brenda... you guys seriously need to get lives. Just grow up because high school doesn't last forever... 416 more days to be exact, so you should watch who you talk about because you are just going to end up not having any friends.

I'm usually not very mean or judgemental, but like I said before.. these girls just make the worst of me come out.. and I don't want to be around people like that.
That's my rant, nothing more, nothing less..

Hmm

I want a forum... everyone is on one.. I want one.

Apendi.. Apendi... APENDICITIS

Hey everyone! It is now a wednesday! On Monday... roughly around 11:30, I had this horrible pain in my right side! I felt nausious, dizzy, and just plain crappy. I went to the office, and I called my mom. She was debating whether or not she should come pick me up or not. After about 10 minutes of my mom and the secretary talking on the phone, my mom decided to come pick me up. Now she works about an hour away from my school, so I was going to be in pain for a while. So my mom gets there about an hour later, and took me to the doctor right away. I got a couple of blood tests done, and then BAM I get a phone call saying I have an infection.. What infection you may ask? Well I wasn't too sure at that time because all they said was "infection". Since my right side was hurting VERY badly, they were thinking it could be appendicitis. Fun.. So I go to the hospital to see what the other doctors have to say. I got an ultrasound and there we go, right there in all of it's glory was my appendix... swollen to this size of a golf ball... That doesn't sound too big, but google "appendix" in images, and you will see that the regular size of an appendix is roughly around a golf tee.. not a golf ball. But they though that it wasn't swollen enough to remove it. Like my friend Michael said "That's like saying a broken leg isn't broken enough for a cast." I agree, I would much rather have it out, than have it hurt me from inside. These meds that the doctor gave me were supposed to fix my appendix. They said that with the medication I'm taking, it shouldn't hurt anymore, and if it does, than come back. Well wouldn't you know it. My appendix was hurting more than ever today. So I guess i hav e to go back tot he doctor and see what's going on with it. Well anways, I'm a little groggy from the medication, so I think I'm going to go lay down because I'm falling asleep right now.
Peace+Love
p.s, Have fun to everyone who went on the Europe Trip!

Hmmm

Hey everyone!
This is my first blog.. on this website.
I'm not the type of person to usually write in a blog.. but I thought I would give it a try. So here we go.
Lets start with a little "about me" section.

My name is obviously Sarah, and I'm in high school. That's all you need to know.

Today in school, it was pretty boring. Nothing to exciting happened, and nothing really stood out. First class, which is dreaded math, was actually not that bad. I sit behind this guy Matt, and in front of Tolson and Jared, and they are always making jokes or saying inappropriate things, but it's super funny. Second class is regular guitar every other day, and jazz guitar every day that regular guitar isn't. That class has to be the funniest class anyone could ever possibly go into! Our teacher Mr. Hunter is really laid back, and we get away with anything, but he is usually the one helping us pull stupid pranks on other teachers or other students. He is also a really nice guy, and you can talk to him about anything like the fears of growing up and going to university, to problems you are having with friends or family, or if you just need someone to vent to. He has to be my all-time favorite teacher. Third thing, I did nothing. It was my spare, but with most of the people I hang out with.. I sort of feel like an outsider. They are all my friends, except for Sammie, which I think secretly hates me, but I just have those days where I don't click with alot of them, but oh well. Everything else was really stupid... oh wait! I threw up today! That was the most eventful thing all day!

Moving on...
I'm pretty sure that my friend I have known since I was four and I have become complete strangers. We don't talk, we never do anything together, and for some reason it doesn't really bother me that much. The only thing that I hate now, is that I don't know if I have a best friend. I can think of some other people who I am REALLY close to and talk to all the time are still friends with me, but how can you be 100% sure? So yeah, about this friend, I'll ask whoever is reading this a few questions: 1. Is a best friend really a best friend if they lie to you more than twice a day? 2. Is a best friend someone you don't talk to and feel like you have nothing to share with them? 3. Is a best friend someone you don't hang out with? All I know is that I'm sort of getting sick of being in this stupid little situation with her, and I kind of want it to stop.

Anyways..
This blog really helped me vent, so I can see why Danika likes it so much! It's pretty cool to tell you the truth!!

But I really should be heading out, but I'll come back and hopefully post some new thing.

Peace + Love